Presence Driven

Presence Driven

Hi all,
A good friend sent me an article that another friend had written that defined the various types of churches available today. Larry Keefauver, Senior Editorial Advisor for Ministries Today magazine, came to the conclusion we need Presence driven churches - which is exactly what we are trying to do in our network of house and relationship based churches. I've listed his 4 categories with my comments below. I'd also like to share how to enter into his presence - how to be 'in the Spirit', or at least what works for me.

Types of churches he lists
1) The past-driven church. It's always remembering big events of the past, their history, their legacy with the idea God will move again!
2) The policy-driven church. This church has a model and follows it, whether denominational or holding to a founder's way of doing things, and those policies often take precedent over people.
3) The personality or pastor-driven church. It's often led by a very strong personality, and passes the church to family members or a close associate. This is the type most closely resembling a family business.
4) The purpose-driven church. This church has a core set of values, picks a main purpose, and builds around that purpose - if a program doesn't fit the purpose, it gets shut down.

I would add
5) The gift-driven church. This type of church focuses on being a "worship center" or "family ministry" or maybe "Word church", or other label. They state up front what they are all about and that is their strength.
6) The cutting edge-driven church. They are the first to jump on whatever and wherever God seems to be moving, and usually have room for all the fleshly manifestations one could want, often highly emotional.
7) The "we're-not-like-the-rest"-driven church. They often appeal to youth, people in alternative lifestyles, people with different worship tastes than Integrity, Hillsongs, choirs, or 1960's era TV evangelist style.
8) Home based churches of all flavors - some emphasize the home, some meet anywhere and perhaps emphasize 1 on 1 accountability, some center around the Lord's Supper, etc, etc.
9) Seeker friendly churches - easy in and easy out, no pressure, everyone feels good.

I'm sure the reader may come up with more types of churches, but my point today is that we all need to be presence-driven no matter the form. What I mean by presence-driven is that a meeting is focused on doing what it takes to bring in the presence of the Lord.

Many worship schools teach worship leaders to start with happy, bouncy "horizontal" songs that are centered about what the Lord has done for us and usually he is referred to in the third person - I can run through a troop and leap over a wall, I traded my sorrows, I've got the joy, joy, joy - and so forth. All focused on earth and more importantly, on "me".

But horizontal songs do little to usher in the presence of the Lord. About the time most worship services go vertical - songs directed to the Father or Jesus in the first person and when God's presence actually manifest in a tangible way, there is only time for 1 or 2 songs, and the flow gets cut off for the announcements.

Good quote
Another friend sent me this quote a couple weeks ago:
"In the New Testament church it says they were all amazed - And now in our churches everybody wants to be amused." -Leonard Ravenhill.

So many people think a meeting was anointed if they laughed a bit, learned a bit, and left feeling really good. I can't count the number of times I've seen a leader has wiped his brow with a hanky after either a hip hop worship time or some yelling/preaching, and proclaimed the presence of the Lord in the place. Sweat doesn't equal anointing for me. I don't like getting yelled at by the preacher and I don't like services where the worship leaders judge you on how active or bouncy you are. Some may feel God's presence in those types of services, but on the whole I wonder if people think emotion equals anointing

The presence of the Lord can also be found and felt in an in-depth study and discussion of God's Word. One of the most intimate times with the Lord I've had in a meeting was around a breakfast table with our house church here in Tulsa - the closeness and love between each person during the meal, discussion, and songs were all super glued together by the tangible presence of the Lord.

Presence driven, what it means
King David was a presence driven man, and being presence driven holds a special place in the Father's heart I think. After all, Jesus said the Father is looking for people who will worship Him in Spirit/spirit and truth, thus true worship certainly brings the presence of the Lord.

In II Samuel 6 David brings the Ark of the Covenant into town, sets it in a tent, and worships the Lord directly, minus any priesthood, brazen altar, laver, show bread, incense, menorah or anything else resembling Moses' tabernacle! He was worshipping more in a New Testament manor than Old Testament, because he was seeking the presence of God, and the Lord not only allowed it, but defended him in it.

To me, a presence driven meeting means everyone comes together for one purpose, to come into the presence of God. That is what drives all participants.

I've often pondered why the New Testament doesn't say more about how the early church met in homes - what meetings looked like. Certainly we are told in I Corinthians 14:26 that worship, revelation, teaching, and the gifts of the Spirit are all manifest, but no form is mentioned in terms of what it actually looked like.

I've come to the conclusion that is because they were presence-driven meetings, and they recognized that the Lord's presence would manifest through the gifts within the people because He lives in each. Participatory in nature rather than sitting back and listening to 1 person share his or her gift, home based meetings offer everyone the opportunity to become involved in whatever is happening- worship, teaching, revelation, the gifts of the Spirit, etc.

But meetings are made up of individuals
If you examine "good" worship services in a traditional church, you'll find many people know corporate anointing and they enter into the presence of the Lord in that way, but relatively few know how to enter into his presence 1 on 1; just them and the Lord alone at home.

I've traveled all over ministering in churches of all types, and honestly, few pastors and worship leaders really know what to do with the presence of the Lord. Some have told me they were trained not to have any times of silence in a service, to keep things moving. One told me he felt awkward when there was silence, not knowing if the congregation was waiting for him, or if he should wait for them to start singing on their own.

Presence driven meetings offer only the lightest touch from the presence of God unless those attending know how to get into the presence of God on a personal level. I was leaving a service in a traditional church one day when a lady commented about how strong she felt the presence of the Lord in worship. I too felt he presence of the Lord, and it was wonderful, but it was cut off before the congregation could move deeper. I thought how much stronger I've felt his presence at home in my living room - but all they knew was the corporate anointing. We need both, don't get me wrong, but nothing replaces personal time in his presence.

This has caused a mind-set to develop that one must go to church to get into the presence of the Lord, which is error and leads to a weak and spiritually anemic congregation.

I can only share the grace given to me, but for me, it's a discipline. As soon as I wake up, and I mean as soon as I'm coming out of that 'twilight zone', I start praying in tongues and I always ask (this may sound funny) "So what do you think Father?"

I don't know why I do that, it just happened one day years ago, coming up out of my spirit, and now it happens every morning. As soon as I am even 1/2 way awake, I want to know what he is thinking, what I should know, what's going on that day. Then I mentally survey all in my 'circle' so to speak, and as I pass each name in my mind I sense if I should linger or pray for them in particular.

That process goes on throughout the day, when I have a chance to break from what I'm doing in one area, and that 'front burner' before the Father is my 'neutral' so to speak. Whenever I can I am praying in the Spirit under my breath - it's habit now! I pray in tongues when reading the paper, when listening to an oldie song on the radio, when listening to talk radio, as I'm typing now - basically if I'm not talking more often than not I'm praying in tongues under my breath.

Each season of life offers a perspective from the Father. When our sons were young, the things I thought on and talked to the Father a lot about had to do with fatherhood. Part of it was how could my dad leave my mom and us 4 kids, part 'Father keep me from ever doing something so horrible', part amazement of what it meant to be a father.

Now I'm a grandfather times 5, and that's a whole other season of reflection and prayer; thinking of the generations that have passed before the Father, how timeless he is, and so forth.

Discipline yourself to be presence driven - first you have to have the heart, then you have to have the follow through. Find what works according to how He built you - a walk in nature, a warm bath, a drive in the country, early morning or late at night - discover what works best, and follow it. He will show up!

Presence driven in life,
Blessings,
John Fenn
www.iFaithhome.org

HE LORD BLESS and KEEP YOU in ALL YOUR WAYS

THE LORD BLESS and KEEP YOU in ALL YOUR WAYS
-by David Wilkerson (16 June 09).

Recently I reread the life story of George Muller who, in the mid-
1830s, cared for over 2,000 orphans in England – all by faith in God.
Muller was a known as the man who got answers to his prayers.
Before he died, he had listed in his journals over 50,000 answers
to prayer.

When asked how he determined the will of God on any matter,
Muller listed the following steps he believed were necessary:

1. “I get my heart into such a state that it has no will of its own in regard to any particular matter.”

2. “I do not leave the result to feelings or simple impressions.
That can make one open to great delusions.”

3. “I seek God’s will through, or in connection with, his Word.
If you look to the Spirit without the Word, you open yourself to
delusion.”

4. “I consider providential [God-controlled] circumstances.”

5. “I ask God in prayer to reveal his will to me.”

6. “I make sure I have a clear conscience before God and man.”

7. “Every time I listened to men instead of God, I made serious
mistakes.”

8. “I act only when I am at peace, after much prayer, waiting on
God with faith.”

Those who walk by faith, seeking only God’s perfect will, are often
sorely tested and tried. More and more in my own life, I am finding
out how important diligent prayer and Bible reading are. Sadly, not
many of God’s people pray diligently nowadays. Instead, there is
much TV viewing and very little of waiting on God.

When I give myself to prayer, my faith rises. And when I feed on
God’s Word, my confidence in his power to lead and help me
increases. The Lord becomes my banker, my advisor, my
attorney.

May you find him doing the same for you.

-David Wilkerson.

SOURCE: http://davidwilkersontoday.blogspot.com

Great LEONARD RAVENHILL QUOTES

Great LEONARD RAVENHILL QUOTES:

- "Not many Christians today can forget the fact that the devil goeth about as a roaring lion, but we seem to have lost sight of the fact that the Lion of the tribe of Judah has defeated the roaring lion of hell, and therefore every anointed Samson or Gideon or church can also slay the lion of hell. Though wicked men are doing
wickedly, God's promise to us is that "the people that do know their God shall be strong and do exploits" (Daniel 11:32)."

"The world is not waiting for a new definition of the Holy Ghost but a new demonstration of the Holy Ghost."
The greatest tragedy is a sick church in a dying world.
If I am filled with the Holy Spirit the same things that grieve the Holy Spirit will grieve my spirit.
"A popular evangelist reaches your emotions. A true prophet
reaches your conscience."
"The last words of Jesus to the church (in Revelation) were -
Repent!'"
"A true shepherd leads the way. He does not merely point the
way."
"John the Baptist never performed any miracles. Yet, he was
greater than any of the Old Testament prophets."
"I doubt that more than two percent of professing Christians in the United States are truly born again."
"Our God is a consuming fire. He consumes pride, lust,
materialism, and other sin."
"There are only two kinds of persons: those dead in sin and
those dead to sin."
"Some women will spend thirty minutes to an hour preparing for
church externally (putting on special clothes and makeup, etc.).
What would happen if we all spent the same amount of time
preparing internally for church? - with prayer and meditation?"
"Maturity comes from obedience, not necessarily from age."
"What good does it do to speak in tongues on Sunday if you
have been using your tongue during the week to curse and
gossip?"
"The Bible is either absolute, or it's obsolete."
"Why do we expect to be better treated in this world than Jesus was?"

More GREAT QUOTES

More GREAT QUOTES
-Sermonindex.net

"If you have no wish to bring others to heaven, you are not going
there yourself."
-C.H. Spurgeon

"Earn all you can, save all you can, and then give all you can."
-C.H. Spurgeon

"Aspire to be something more than the mass of church members.
Lift up your cry to God and beseech him to fire you with a nobler
ambition than that which possesses the common Christian—that
you may be found faithful unto God at the last, and may win many
crowns for your Lord and Master, Christ."
-C.H. Spurgeon

"An unholy church! it is useless to the world, and of no esteem
among men. It is an abomination, hell’s laughter, heaven’s
abhorrence. The worst evils which have ever come upon the world
have been brought upon her by an unholy church."
-C.H. Spurgeon

"Isn't it staggering when you think that one sermon on the day
of Pentecost produced 3000 people? And we had some cities
yesterday where 3000 sermons were preached and nobody was
saved. And it doesn't even faze us."
-Leonard Ravenhill

"for all seek their own, not the things which are Jesus Christ's."
(Philippians 2:21).

"For what is your life?..." (James 4:14a)

"Can we go too fast in saving souls? If anyone still wants a reply,
let him ask the lost souls in Hell."
-William Booth

"There is nothing little in God."
—C.H. Spurgeon

“If Jesus had preached the same message that ministers preach
today, He would never have been crucified.” Leonard Ravenhill

"In the New Testament church it says they were all amazed -
And now in our churches everybody wants to be amused."
-Leonard Ravenhill.

THE SEARCH for "HUNGER"

THE SEARCH for "HUNGER"
-by Andrew Strom.

A few years ago I heard my friend David Servant give a teaching
which changed my life quite profoundly. He was speaking about the
fact that Jesus told His disciples to focus on the "hungry" people
and those who 'receive' the message - and literally to leave the
others behind. Jesus was actually very insistent on this. He
specifically instructed his disciples, "If they do not receive you in
this town, shake the dust off your feet and go to the next town"
and "Do not cast your pearls before swine".

To many of us this is a very radical way of thinking. But it is actually
the commandment of God. Why? Because God does not want His
servants all over the world to be stuck wasting years and years on
"un-hungry" people! He wants them to be productive - to bear much
fruit - to be where the hungry ones are who will gladly receive their
word. And sometimes whole nations are basically hungry while
others are basically sleepy, lukewarm and complacent. We know
this from history.

Recently while in Wales, David Servant made the same point again
in regard to Revival. He pointed out that it is not just Prayer and
Repentance preaching that are the main keys to Revival. There
must also be a basic HUNGER amongst the people in order for
any kind of real Awakening to take hold. Complacency, apathy,
materialism and lukewarmness can kill any Revival stone dead -
almost before it starts.

Sometimes "calamity" must come to produce such a hunger. Other
times it has been poverty or war. In the Eastern Bloc countries it
was the fall of Communism that produced a massive hunger for a
period, and thousands came to the Lord - but this seemed to last
only a few years. "Hunger" is certainly a very big key to Revival.

Personally, one of the things I try to look for when visiting countries
these days is the level of Hunger that seems to prevail in the land.
In the last couple of years I have ministered in almost every corner
of the Western world - USA, UK, Australia, New Zealand, South
Africa, Europe. I always have high hopes that I will find regions of
real Hunger - the kind that I often see in the Third World. But sadly
this is a rare occurrence in the West. Of course there is a 'remnant'
everywhere. And I was encouraged by what I saw in South Africa.
But basically we need to face the fact that the West is asleep -
barely hungry at all - though there are a few glimmers of hope
starting to appear because of the recession.

Wales is sadly another example of this - in some ways the saddest
of all. 100 years ago Wales was the most alive, hungry, spiritual
powerhouse in the world. And yet today the people show little
interest, the chapels stand empty, and apathy reigns supreme.
We have been going into pubs in Wales, talking to the "common
man" about it all. Most have never even heard of the Welsh Revival -
and hardly give Christianity the slightest thought. Terribly sad. But
we aim to keep our pub ministering up for the six months or so
that we are here. Much of the Western world is almost as bad.
Lulled to sleep by too much entertainment, comfort and materialism.
In Wales many worship football far more fervently than they worship God.

So what do we do about all of this? Where do we go? What would
God have us doing? For me, Africa is the place of "hunger" that God
has been sending me to for year after year. For you it may be
someplace else. Pray about it. Don't just sit and "vegetate". God
wants you fruitful. He didn't design you to just sit and sit forever.
Be up and about the Lord's business! Do you realize that we are
living in the most exciting times of Revival that Asia and South
America and Africa have ever seen? Get up! Get involved! You are
not designed to miss out on this! There is hunger all over the world,
and such a terrible shortage of laborers. The call of God is to "Go"!

I know that some in the West find pockets of hunger in the prisons
or amongst Refugees coming into the country, etc. These may be
very good places to check out. But either way we need to start
"prioritizing" hunger the way that God prioritizes it. To Him it is of
the utmost importance. In fact, it can be the main deciding factor
of whether or not He can move powerfully amongst a people. (See
the Sermon on the Mount for proof of this in Jesus' words).

And so, to conclude, I believe we need to ask ourselves some fairly
basic questions - which indeed I have to ask myself also:
-Are we focusing our ministry on truly "Hungry" people?
-Do we 'move on' as Jesus instructed if a town or people do not
receive our word?
-Or do we hang on for year after year - sowing our precious seed
on hard and crusty soil - which is exactly what Jesus told us NOT to do?

May each of us find ourselves in the most productive and fruitful
part of God's vineyard that He has chosen for us, my friends. The
fields of much of the world are white unto harvest.

God bless you all.

Andrew Strom.

The Deepest Freedom

The Deepest Freedom
BodyLife • January 2001
By Wayne Jacobsen
The familiar voice on the phone brought back incredible memories of the friendship we had shared, even though it had been almost two years since we had last spoken. "What has God been doing in you?" he asked after we had exchanged pleasantries.
Before I realized what I was saying, the words rolled off of my tongue: "Over the past few years God has defied to the nth degree every expectation and desire I had for my life." I was so surprised at my own answer and how smoothly it had flowed from my lips that as I paused to think about it an uneasy silence hung on the line.
After a few moments he spoke again, quite tentatively, "And is that a good thing?"
I remember chuckling as I answered, "It is the best thing!"
"Really?"
"Yes! In every way, what Father has accomplished in me was far better than anything I had tried to produce for myself."
I was probably as surprised by the answer as he was. My life is far from any idealized existence I'd been taught to dream. The last few years had brought many painful circumstances that I would have changed in an instant had I the power to do so, as well as a number of disappointed hopes that I thought were as much God's idea as mine.
What I realized in that moment, however, was that none of those things mattered anymore. Somehow in this incredible journey he had guided me toward a deeper level of freedom. What had for most of my spiritual journey been a great source of frustration--that God would not meet my expectations of him--had in fact been his hand setting me free from the worst kind of bondage.
I wanted him to please me; he wanted me to be free of the need to be pleased. Painful circumstances and disappointing expectations had been the incubator in which God wanted to teach me to stop trusting my expectations for my life and embrace his.
The Tyranny of Self
Today, I look back in awe. In spite of my best efforts at times to the contrary, God has steadily drawn me to himself. The things he's changed in me, the people he has brought into my life, the way he has provided, and the doors he has opened to share his reality with others are far beyond anything I could ever have asked or imagined. (Which is a clear way of saying this is not the way I would have done it!)
I am now living the life in him the life I always thought was possible when I read with deep longing the Scriptures that spoke of God's reality. Along the way, many tried to convince me I was just too idealistic. They told me that the relationship I desired with him and the depth of body life I hungered for with other believers were not going to be found in this age of fallen humanity. They may be right if we're looking for fallen humanity to produce it--especially if we look to ourselves. But he has ways, to do just that in each of us if we ask him to do so.
But the greatest tyranny in our lives is not legalism, tradition nor religious obligation so prevalent in our day. As binding as those things can be, a more powerful tyrant holds us captive from the true depths of Father's life and joy--self! We can be free of all the others and yet remain captive to this one that matters most.
I've seen it happen far too often. The nature of the things God's asked me to write brings me to people who are discovering just how much bondage organized religion has become in our day. While it promises a dynamic relationship with the Living God, it too often only offers a program of behavioral conformity that leaves many empty, manipulated and disillusioned. Watching God set people free from that bondage is always a joy. However, freedom from those things without also finding freedom from the tyranny of self only becomes an excuse for greater bondage to the flesh. Paul warned the Galatians just how true that is.
Our greatest captivity is not to any other person or system; it is to self. And the greater bondage here is not the appetites of the flesh we clearly know are sinful, but the agendas we hold for our own good. Trying to get God to do for me what I think is best has tripped me up far more effectively, than more obvious sins.
 
God's Will As A Joy
About six months ago I ran across these words from I Peter 4:1-2 in The Message, Eugene Peterson's translation of the Bible. I think I have shared them just about everywhere I've gone since because I think they capture the heart of living as one of God's children.
"Since Jesus went through everything you're going through and more, learn to think and act like him. Think of your sufferings as a weaning away from the old sinful habit of always expecting to get your own way. Then you'll be able to live out your days free to pursue what God wants instead of being tyrannized by what you want."
Growing up as a young Christian I used to view doing God's will as the overwhelming burden of the serious disciple. Somehow we were supposed to find the will-power to deny ourselves all the things we really wanted to do and then force ourselves to do God's will. Doing his will was not something to be desired, but endured.
This translation turns that thinking on its head. Who wouldn't want to wake up everyday free to engage God's desires in their life? I'll tell you who: those who have no idea who God is. If you think him a demanding taskmaster, you will find his will not only frustrating but you'll also never be sure what it is. However, once you know him as he really is and are secure in how much he loves you, pursuing what he wants everyday will become your greatest joy.
 
Notice how Peter regards our self-nature. It is the tyrant, not God. I can think of no better words to describe our own agenda. When you go into a situation having to get your own way, don't you feel tyrannized? I have. I was so afraid I wouldn't be able to survive if I didn't get what I wanted that I pressured myself and everyone else to conform to what I thought best. The weight of pulling that off is a tyranny all its own and a source of great anxiety for us and manipulation for others.
The real joy of being God's child is waking up everyday with the simple freedom to join God in what he wants. As Jesus said, he is always working, in our lives and in people around us. He wants to share in the delight of that working, as a Father with his son or daughter. There is no greater freedom than to do so without distorting that with false needs and misplaced wants.
 
The School of Hard Knocks
How does that freedom come? Do you think you can just read an article or book about it and turn around and do it? I wish! How does God free us from our own agenda and teach us how much fun it is to embrace his? He does it by defying our misplaced expectations. That's why Peter encouraged us to think of our sufferings as God's way of weaning us away from having to get our own way.
Peter didn't say he orchestrates our sufferings. He doesn't create your troubles to teach you a lesson, but simply uses the troubles of life in this age to show you his freedom. He just graciously refuses to settle for flawed agendas and continues to fulfill his own in the lives of those who have asked him to do so.
He doesn't deny us what we want to frustrate us, but to show us that he knows best about everything. The only way we figure that out is to watch our hard-fought agendas fall to nothing and to see God's working exceed our greatest expectations.
This is not an easy process, as I'm sure you already know. When God doesn't do the things we expect him to, we often wonder if he doesn't love us, or if we haven't done enough to earn his favor. Only by knowing that he loves you completely will you ever be able to go through moments of suffering as the weaning process he desires.
God's not punishing you he is fulfilling your hunger at a deeper level. When I first started publishing books in the late 80's I was just certain God wanted me to be a best-selling author and reform his church by the influence of the words I was writing. When book distribution was well below my expectations, I was frustrated at God. When my first two books went out of print, I was downright angry. Why would God fail me? Weren't my desires only for his best interest? (You can laugh now!)
The more "my ministry" didn't grow the way I desired, the more frustrated I got with God. Did that change the way he treated me? Not one bit! He still moved ahead to work his desires into my life. It almost killed me because I didn't trust him. I was so tuned to what I thought God wanted I couldn't recognize what he was actually doing. During those days my life was marked with bouts of anger, frustration, and anxiety.
Over the years, however, I've seen God maneuver circumstances that continued to draw me closer to him and closer to what he really had in mind for me. He opened doors I wasn't even knocking on. He showed me that his idea of ministry made mine look like garbage in comparison. He really does know what is best for us everyday and is fully capable to lead us to it as long as we keep inviting him to do so.
 
NATO Living
The trick is learning how to live each day in the expectancy of God's working in the circumstances of my life, without giving in to the expectation that it must look any particular way to satisfy me. I have begun to taste of the freedom of that kind of trust, and it is the most incredible reality I've yet to find in his love.
Imagine the freedom of no longer having to try and manipulate God or others toward your desired outcome. Instead, you can simply find out what he is up to, and though it will often seem more painful in the short-term than you might want, his ways are always the best -- not only in resolving our circumstances but transforming us through them.
A number of years ago I read a book about a man playing the last rounds of golf with his terminally ill father around the famed courses of Scotland. Early on that trip he realized how little he enjoyed golf because his only goal was to shoot the lowest score possible. Whenever he got an unlucky bounce or hit a bad shot he'd sulk for the next few holes and play even worse.
That's when his father taught him to play NATO golf--Not Attached To Outcome. In other words, his father told him, don't worry about the score, just enjoy the challenge of hitting each shot as well as you can. When it goes off track, go find it and figure out the best shot you can hit from there. Let the score take care of itself and even if you don't have a good round you still get to enjoy a walk in a beautiful park and the friendship of your partners.
Perhaps we should learn to live each day Not Attached To Outcome.  Wouldn't we be truly free if we could do the same on our own spiritual journeys? Instead of being so focused on the outcomes we desire, we could simply trust that regardless of the outcome, God is doing his work in and through us. Now instead of wasting our time with him trying to get him on our page, we can simply enjoy our fellowship with him as he moves us to his. And believe me, it is a lot more peaceful walking with God on his page, than constantly trying to figure out how to get him on yours.
 
A Better Agenda
What God has been doing in you since the day you came to know him, is to liberate you from the tyranny of self. He knows that your ability to live in his rest, peace and joy, will not come when you get everything you want, but when you forsake all your wants and embrace his.
Through most of my spiritual journey, I've been an insecure person about God's love for me and my significance in the world. Most of what drove my life in those early years was trying to be successful, in my own eyes and the eyes of others. My prayer life focused around those insecurities, trying to get God to arrange my circumstances so that I would not have to be afraid or risk failure.
It always amazed me when he seemed to ignore my most ardent prayers, especially for those things I was certain were part of his vision for my life. How could he not change the things that angered and frustrated me?
Thankfully he had something far better in mind. I wanted him to change my circumstances so I would never have the need to feel insecure or afraid. He wanted to change me so that no circumstance would ever make me afraid again. If my security was going to be based on circumstances, he knew I would never follow him to the incredible places he wanted to take me.
How did he do that? He allowed circumstances to confront my greatest insecurities over and over again. In spite of my cries for relief, he just kept showing up for me every day, swallowing my pain with his love and gently pointing me toward a better way.
 
The Joy of Freedom
Certainly he has far more to do in my life along these lines, but somehow the last few months have brought me to a new plateau of this freedom. I feel like I can walk into most situations now with a freedom to live without catering to my agenda. I am more excited about what he might do than what I think he should do.
I don't find myself haunted by the same insecurities or plagued by the sleepless nights of anxiety. I don't walk into difficult conversations with that knot in the pit of my stomach because I know the outcome is not in my hands but his. Without all that bondage, I find it much easier to recognize his hand and flow with it.
Yes, there are still times I would like him to change some of my circumstances in ways that would make it easier for me. Now, however, I have a healthy suspicion that the way I would go about anything in my life and the way God would are probably polar opposites. I still let him know my requests of him, but I listen more intently for his of me. I know that what he's up to in every circumstance will be far better than anything I could conceive.
So if you find God defying some of your most passionate expectations, just consider that he is doing something more extraordinary in you than you have yet grasped. He is expressing his love to you at a deeper level so that you will no longer have to bow to the tyranny of self.
By opening your eyes to that reality he is showing you how to be truly free--not just from legalism, works or religious obligation, but from a more powerful foe still. He wants you to be free of you, and only by doing so will you be able to know the person he created you to be.
You'll find that freedom to be one of God's greatest gifts. It will allow you to enjoy him more deeply and to recognize more easily how he wants you to share in his work around you.
You, too, will wake up each day excited to embrace what God wants rather than being forced by the tyranny of your own wants. This freedom is like no other.

GREAT QUOTES from LEONARD RAVENHILL

GREAT QUOTES from LEONARD RAVENHILL


"Today's church wants to be raptured from responsibility."

"Testimonies are wonderful. But, so often our lives don't fit our
testimonies."

[Concerning one of the new "movements" in the church that was
causing a stir among Christians:] "There's also a stir when the
circus comes to town."

"My main ambition in life is to be on the Devil's most wanted list."

"You can't develop character by reading books. You develop it
from conflict."

"When there's something in the Bible that churches don't like,
they call it: legalism.'"

"Our seminaries today are turning out dead men."

"How can you pull down strongholds of Satan if you don't even
have the strength to turn off your TV?"

"Everyone recognizes that Stephen was Spirit-filled when he was
performing wonders. Yet, he was just as Spirit-filled when he was
being stoned to death."

"If a Christian is not having tribulation in the world, there's
something wrong!"

[Concerning the fixation that today's church has with numbers,
with growth at any price:] "The church has paid a terrible price for
statistics!"

"You can have all of your doctrines right, yet still not have the
presence of God."

"Many pastors criticize me for taking the Gospel so seriously. But
do they really think that on Judgment Day, Christ will chastise me,
saying, 'Leonard, you took Me too seriously?"

"If Jesus had preached the same message that ministers preach
today, He would never have been crucified."

"If the whole church goes off into deception, that will in no way
excuse us for not following Christ."

We try organizing - we should try agonizing.

If a man will stand before God he will never kneel before men.

'"I have nothing and possess all things."... The church today has
everything yet possesses nothing.'