Traveling into Silence
A journey into two of the quietest places on earth. /
“Silence teaches us to know reality by respecting it where words have defiled it.” ― Thomas Merton“My soul, wait thou in silence for God only; for my expectation is from him.” — Psalm 62:5, ASV
The forest was hushed, but
the silence I found wasn’t quite what I expected. I went out on the Hoh
River Trail at Olympic National Park looking to find silence. I had been
wanting to visit ever since I moved to Washington, and when I read
about the One Square Inch
project in the local news, I began making plans. The founder, acoustic
ecologist Gordon Hempton, claims that a sliver of space in the Hoh
Rainforest in Olympic National Park is “very possibly the quietest place
in the United States,” unmarred by any human noises.
A movement in the last 10 to 15 years has moved
soundscapes to the forefront, aiming to protect spaces from human noises
such as freeways, industry and airplane flight paths. While we
associate national parks with striking visual landscapes, the US
National Park Service has a mandate to protect soundscapes as well.
According to its management policies: “The Service will restore to the
natural condition wherever possible those park soundscapes that have
become degraded by unnatural sounds (noise), and will protect natural
soundscapes from unacceptable impacts.”
Like most who seek silence, I was hoping to find a
natural condition less degraded by noise. While I’ve never audibly heard
God’s voice, there are times when it seems he is speaking and times
when it seems like he is silent. We associate God’s silence with feeling
alone and empty, but as began my hike I thought about the irony that
historically, physical silence has been a spiritual discipline for
people hoping to hear something from God. What about sitting in silence
contributes to spiritual growth? Is it that it is restorative to
eliminate the noise that fills so many our urban lives? Or is it the
discomfort we feel when silences get a little bit too long, challenging
our notions of what it means to “hear from God”?
Noise can describe visual distortion in a photograph,
lack of a clear signal, irrelevant data. It also can describe
disquieting thoughts. That kind of noise seems much louder in the
silence.
So what was it I was looking for? Emptiness? A lack of
noise? A lack of sound altogether? There’s more to it than the merely
audible.
Before hiking out to Hempton’s quietest square inch, I
sought silence of another sort in my own neighborhood. Just down the
road, the computer device company Logitech creates and tests audio
equipment like speakers and headsets. At the heart of the facility is
its anechoic chamber, a room designed to eliminate all acoustic
reflections. Acoustic engineer Matt Green told me that Logitech’s
chamber reads at zero decibels. It’s nearly the most silent place on
earth, though that record technically belongs to Microsoft’s anechoic
chamber in Redmond, Washington, which was recorded at -20.35
decibels—almost as quiet as the sound of air molecules in motion at room
temperature. Not that we’d be able to hear the difference—zero decibels
is, by definition, the limit of human hearing.
Many people who visit anechoic chambers describe the
experience as somewhat magical. Chris Watson, a wildlife sound
recordist, described his experience: “There was a hissing in my ears and
a low pulsing that I can only guess was the sound of my blood
circulating.”
Green led me into the chamber through thick
four-foot-deep doors. They were lined, like the walls, with foam
triangular wedges. When I passed through the door, I understood why it
is called a chamber—there was a gap between the building and the walls
intended to prevent any vibrations from the main building. I stepped
onto the wire mesh floor that absorbed each step like a taut trampoline,
surprised that I could see through the floor down into more cushy
wedges.
After he explained the specs of the room, he left me
alone to feel the magic. As a sat in silence, I strained to see if I
could hear my heartbeat. No luck. I could hear what almost sounded like
blood moving through my veins—or was it? I listened to every slow breath
I took. The loudest thing in the room was my own ears faintly ringing,
as if attempting to pick up some frequency when there was none
discernable. Tinnitis, I reckoned.
The silence felt like it was pressing in, which doesn’t
make sense, really. The absence of sound waves reaching my ear should
feel empty, unburdened, right? An absence of pressure on the cochlea.
Nevertheless, the silence was heavy.
A strange reverence washed over me. The technology was
impressive, but it didn’t make sense that I should feel so in awe. But I
was. I didn’t just think it was cool. I felt it. If I
swayed slightly, I could feel my head spin just ever so slightly. When
in conversation, the sound stopped short of the mouth.
In retrospect, I suppose the magic is actually the human
ear—until you lack something that is commonplace (sound), you forget
what is actually amazing about it.
The absence of something certainly didn’t feel like
nothing. In fact, it made me more aware of what was there. Most notably,
myself.
In the arts, silences are
used to force contemplation or add dramatic tension. Sometimes that
tension never resolves, as in American composer John Cage’s famous 4’33”.
In the piece, the musicians take the stage and sit at their instrument
without playing a single note for 4 minutes and 33 seconds. While the
audience may feel cheated out of hearing a song, they inadvertently
contribute ambient noise in the form of whispers and other movements
that make up the bulk of the piece. (Cage wrote the piece after visiting
an anechoic chamber, awed that the sounds of his own body were audible
in such a silent space.)
But it’s not only experimental classical music that
makes great use of silence. “Great rock and roll pauses” are at the
center of Jennifer Egan’s novel A Visit from the Goon Squad,
where one of the main characters becomes obsessed with the silent
moments in “Bernadette” by the Four Tops, Jimi Hendrix’s “Foxey Lady,”
“Young Americans” by David Bowie, and other songs.
Daniel Levitin, a cognitive psychologist, writes in This Is Your Brain on Music:
“One way of flouting expectation is to add unexpected silences, even
very brief ones. The brain seems to find pleasure in adjusting itself to
remain synchronized with the musical beat.”
Sometimes the tension of silence is resolved
dramatically. I contemplated the 400 years of silence in the Bible—the
period when God seemingly stopped speaking through prophets, ended when
the Word became flesh.
Expectation punctuated by silence.
The silences I heard in the
Hoh Rainforest were like pauses between beats. The beats were sometimes
natural, but often human noises, as well. I was a little let down by
the hype of Hempton’s “sanctuary for silence.”
According to the National Park Service’s Soundscape and
Night Sky Division, it’s not even the quietest place in the park system.
For that, I’d have to travel to Maui’s Haleakala Crater, which can
reach as quiet as 10 decibels.
Bill Rohde, a park volunteer and former district ranger
at the visitor center, scoffed when I asked about the trail to the One
Square Inch location. “There’s 1,500 square miles of silence in this
park,” he said. Sure, there are other hikers, but find a less-traveled
trail, hike further in, or just enjoy the quiet moments you have alone
on the path before another hiker comes along, he advised. There is some
jet noise from the US military training, too, but it’s not constant.
Rohde wasn’t too concerned about either the jet noise or
the crowds. It’s not so busy as to be unenjoyable, he promised. Silence
is there if you’re looking for it.
Feeling a little disillusioned, I entered the trail with
my family and was immediately reminded that nature is not always nice.
The trail’s natural sounds were not all restorative and transcending. It
was yellow jacket season and the first half mile of the Upper Hoh Trail
featured their low hum, which rose to a persistent buzz as the insects
caught scent and circled around us, hanging onto our packs, tickling our
clothes, dancing around our ears. When I wanted to stop to take in a
view, the wasps kept me walking at a brisk pace, my senses highly alert
to their presence and potential for sting.
The trees in the rainforest, though, are like none I’ve
ever seen before—my Portland-area eyes are accustomed to younger
forests. Seemingly enchanted with wildness and life in every crevice,
the forest spoke of an era before logging.
One of the largest temperate rainforests in the US, the
Hoh Rainforest receives 12 to 14 feet of rain each year. Trees reach
toward the heavens that the feed them, covering almost every inch of
open sky. At one point, I realized that I could feel a light mist—a
foggy, wetness hung in the air—but only a handful of droplets pierced
through the tree canopy to meet my skin.
While tall and noble, trees in the rainforest have
shallow roots, not needing to grow deep to soak up readily available
water. Winter storms topple them easily. Adorned in moss on every inch,
some fallen trees melted into forest carpet. These “nurse logs,” the
decaying of which is hastened by moss, provide fertile ground for
seedlings.
I wondered if the sound was absorbed into the cushy,
verdant layers of plant life much like sound disappeared into the foam
walls of the anechoic chamber. I could see why Hempton had singled out
this place. I hadn’t thought it would be so, but this was much quieter
than the wide open sky and dusty buttes of Theodore Roosevelt National
Park in North Dakota near my childhood home. T.R. National Park is a
less visited site with certainly less human noise on the trail, and yet
the night soundscape is filled with croaking, chirping, and buzzing;
unseen life shuffling through the silver sage and juniper bushes,
cottonwood trees rustling in the wind, maybe even the eerie howling of
coyotes.
The Hoh wasn’t complete silence, of course. It was
dramatically unlike the stark anechoic chamber. But it seemed that sound
only happened if it was near you. Birds chirped, joining the buzz of
the yellow jackets and insect staccatos. An occasional leaf fluttered.
We were hiking quite near the river, and I couldn’t even hear it until
the trees thinned and the trail drew right next to it. And, sure, the
parks volunteer was right. People marched by, nodding hello, but then
all would go more or less quiet save for a few birds and the thud of my
sneakers against the trail.
Ironically, the loudest thing in my search for silence
was me. It was so in the silent chamber, too. My breath—the one thing
separating me from complete silence. Somehow it became clear to me that,
yes, I was there in the silences, but so was God. His breath was there,
as loud as my breath, his work as near as perceptible as my loud
footfalls trudging forward on the trail.
Is it that God stops speaking or that we forget to hear
the silences for what they are: dramatic pauses in a grand story by a
sovereign and very much present storyteller?
In the moment of a pause, the brain still fires neurons.
Neurologist David Kraemer has found that when a person is listening to a
familiar song, which suddenly stops, his brain’s auditory cortex
remains active. Kraemer explained in Nautilus: “What you’re ‘hearing’ is not being generated by the outside world. … You’re retrieving a memory.”
So, then, could the spiritual discipline of silence help
remind us what notes come next in the song? When it seems like God is
silent, if we already know the song, we imagine and expect what comes
next “finding pleasure in adjusting … to remain synchronized with the
musical beat.”
As I sat in relative silence, I adjusted my expectation
of God’s voice. I am reminded that even his silence is his part of his
speaking. My breath is part of his breathing, part of his song. As I
looked out at the Hoh River, I listened as his voice rang out in buzzing
yellow jackets, warbling birds, spruce seedlings sprouting from
decaying logs, fog rolling into the forest bringing water and life—all
of this is evidence that he is most certainly with us and also loudly
speaking in the quietest places.
Rebecca Randall is science editor for The Behemoth and Christianity Today.
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